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[05 Aug 2004|09:48pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

chinese food is great or (to be more specific orange chicken and chow mein), along with fortune cookies and chop sticks. i just ate some with austeen and ana... austeen is vietnamese and she has no idea how to use chop sticks i mean come on im white or shall i say french canadian, anas mexican and we know perfectly well how to use chop sticks. those god damn austeens!!
im going jet skiing tomorrow and its gonna be awesome...

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[05 Aug 2004|12:42am]
[ mood | stressed ]

after i had time to think about a lot of shit going on, today ive realized that this person isnt being a douche bag... they can do whatever the fuck they want but it just made me a little sad that he lead me on and made me think we were gonna have something cause i liked him a lot and he made me happy and forget all the bad shit going on around me. but im very pissed off cause they seem to be avoiding me now and i really need to sort this shit out cause i still wanna be friends at least cause he is such a great guy. besides why other chicks besides me?? i thought we got a long so good and i know you very well but i guess hes a little more freindly with these chicks!...! is it cause i want a relationship and these chicks dont and your sick of bad relationships even though i wouldnt have ruined this one. or you just wanna have fun with chicks now and not get attached and get hurt again and again. i guess it is that, cause what else could it be. i wouldnt want to get hurt over and over like he has been.

void of hate

[04 Aug 2004|01:27pm]
[ mood | bored ]

this world is secluded filled with hatred and tedium.
i feel nothing im weightless... you were the only object that actually had a meaning.
you made me feel unique and beautiful...
youve never puzzled me, made me uncomfortable, or even overlooked me.
you never made me feel distress.
no one understood me, except you!
no one would listen, except you!
no one would even care, except you!
now its over ive lost something i can never have again.
im already deseasd without you.
every time you are mentioned or seen, a little part of my heart dissentigrates.
why cant you acknowledge im here.
dont neglect me.
me and you are in the same world together.
i feel theres only room for one.
who shall be the one to leave? is it you. is it me.
it must be the weightless fuck up.
how will i attempt my departure?
shall i venture it instantaneous or shall i venture it deliberately?
what will happen once the darkness conceals my vibrant eyes? will i rest forever in a world where nothing matters?
i know im still young, i have a whole life ahead, but i cant live in this agony!

if this someone reads this and you know who you are i need to talk to you and find out why you are being the biggest douche bag ever!!

3 _ void of hate

[03 Aug 2004|11:14pm]
i love austeen and ana!!!
1 _ void of hate

[03 Aug 2004|12:17pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

its nicole, austeen just made me a livejournal so add me if you want to

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